Do you ever wonder if anything you do matters? Do you sometimes feel small and insignificant? I do. I feel like there's so much I need to do and not enough time in my day in which to do it. I tell myself I need to do this or that and, unless I write those things down, they're gone. Generally my reminders to myself elude me like steam from a kettle. One minute they're there and the next they're not. So I sometimes (a lot) feel like I'm just spinning my wheels trying to keep myself on track for everything I think is important.
Actually, though, what I may think important, isn't always that crucial. There is something, though, that I can remember to do which is important. I'm just one small person in a great big world . . . but I CAN do something. I can pray. When a situation or a person pops into my head, I can pray for them. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I can pray. When I'm cruising through my Facebook news feed and I see something, I can pray. I can do this even though I may not personally know the person/s for whom I pray.
I have to wait until I get to Heaven before I no longer feel frustrated, forgetful and a failure. When my wheels are spinning and I'm feeling at a loss because I can't keep track of all those "important" things that "need" to be done, I remind myself what's important . . . and I pray. Some day I won't have to deal with this human condition, but, for now, I'll make do and carry on.